You've decided to reincarnate. Playing in the ethers has been swell, and you've been noticing that tug... more to experience, more to learn. You miss the challenge and reward of being in a physical body. It doesn't take much, just a shift in vibration of the lower three chakras in the Astral body and you find yourself on the Threshold. Again.

Sure, you could still back out, but you've already gotten interested in the symbolism of your Original Blueprint. You'd forgotten about that thing. Kind of like pulling out the old high school yearbook, you quickly get immersed in the memories of who you were, what dreams you had, the friends you hung out with and what they thought you were “Most Likely To...”

Except the Blueprint contains “everything.” All you have done and hope to do. And “everything” has never been so clear!

It's all exquisitely simple. 1) Pretend that there is Other. 2) Forget that you and all Other were once One. 3) Play with Other as if you were actually separate. 4) Eventually remember and follow your longing for Union back home.

Given those instructions, anything goes! Standing in front of your Original Blueprint you know that nothing exists outside of Spirit, so anything you want to do is OK! It will all lead back to Source. So you begin to design your next incarnation.

Flash to now. Here. Adult human. It's OK, go ahead and shake your head about ego, personality, emotions, physical limitations, culture, society, religions, government, money, education, programming, politics, power... Did you really pick the life you've been living? What were you thinking?

Yeaaaahhhh, on the Threshold, we tend to forget what it's like to be Spirit in a human body and create a life in the dualistic material world. We feel we can do all and anything. We definitely tend to forget that there is no right and wrong, good and bad and that whatever happens, it's happening in Spirit, so it's really all OK!

So what the heck was going on up there?

You weren't planning out your life in the sense of what you wanted to be, what your love life might be like, whether you'd be rich or poor, athletic or sickly, etc. The details of our life are incidentals. For all the importance and drama you assign them, what you're going to find written on your Original Blueprint in the end is how close you were able to resonate to the frequencies you chose when you came.

It's a frequencies game. When you incarnate you are selecting the frequencies that resonate with you. Imagine you are a composer and you have a little tune running through your head and you want to create a symphony based on that tune. So you go to the musical note store and begin to collect all the notes you'll need to expand your little ditty into a magnum opus. You don't know yet how all the notes will come together, how it will sound, what parts all the instruments will play.

In the physical world, in our “life,” each of these frequencies that we so merrily hum to on the Threshold manifests as an archetype of relationship. After all, this is completely about you and Other, whether that Other is another human or animal or nature or event. You were drawn to these frequencies because they would serve, like mile markers along the highway, to guide you back to Union. You chose the frequencies to combine with Other frequencies to create the “song” you desired to experience.

So yes, it is safe to assume that on the Threshold you liked each and every one of these frequencies. You resonated with them. They felt right! Do they still? Several decades into performing the symphony, how do you feel about it?

Most likely, you have forgotten, distorted or abandoned many of the frequencies you started out with. This happened because the emotional, mental and physical bodies didn't get the memo that the life you wanted to live was embedded in the frequency Spirit was bringing into your vulnerable baby body. Well, actually, there is information in the Spiritual strands of DNA, but no one but Spirit knows how to access it. Which, Spirit initially does by implanting them into the epigenetics of the infant self. However, since those around you begin to program you the moment you are born (with their own out-of-tune frequencies) it would be rare that you learned to recognize and activate your Blueprint frequencies.
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Christmas Eve morning I woke up from one of those “info download” dreams. I had clearly been somewhere other than the physical and had been given a lesson. The lesson was,

“If you want to get back on track, find those frequencies from your Original Blueprint and start vibrating to them again.” I'm pretty sure I heard my etheric mentor whisper “Duh!” under her breath. I grabbed a pen and turned on the bedside table lamp and found a wide enough margin in the newspaper laying there and wrote stuff like this...

Frequency = archetype... find ones that deeply resonate... practice vibrating to that frequency... embody the archetype it invokes. (Archetype here being the expression of the kind of human being you are desiring to be.)

When we all vibrate to the frequencies we resonate to, the Universe gets to take its next step. We can't know what that is or when it will be.

It's about finding the frequency first and staying true to that vibration without fabricating the archetype, the behaviors, beliefs, actions we think belong to that frequency. All of those concepts are most likely “shoulds” and other programming. Just vibrate to the frequency you resonate to and let it manifest you. Voila! Presto! Back to the Original Blueprint.

How can you know? You have a built in tuning fork in your body and your feelings. You've probably noticed them more often when you're not resonating. You feel angry or unhappy or depressed, your body may lose energy or hurt or get tight and tense. And it is great to have that feedback so you know when you are out of tune. What you really want to practice, however, is finding a frequency that makes you feel “right,” like you've come home to yourself, and resonating with it as much as possible.

Remember the childhood game where you'd hide something and then guide your playmate to find it by indicating whether they were getting warmer or colder? It's a lot like that. Pay attention to the times during your day when you feel “right” and notice the frequency of your vibration in that moment. Bookmark it in your emotional computer so you can come back to it, and let it guide you to what you're meant to be and do by noticing when it gets “warmer” and “colder.”

Feeling “right” has nothing to do with having an answer or being smart. And it isn't always related to feeling good or happy, etc. Feeling right happens when what is manifesting for you is resonating “spot on” with your frequency. Some of the most challenging experiences you have may be the most resonant. And when they are, even if they are sad or scary or embarrassing, you can feel that they are exactly what is supposed to be happening. You are able to get through them and feel better for it.

As for the other times – which can feel like most the time – if you are out of sync you will be in resistance, because the experience is not really true for you. Instead of a clear vibration you will resonate like a cracked bell and the vibration will not be clear. These are the “hard times.” This is where the pain and rage and terror and gut-wrenching sadness manifest because, though you have to go through it, it was not in tune with your original frequency. It's not “yours” and often feels like you are a victim. These times come around because of our programming, taking on or believing someone else's frequency is what you are supposed to vibrate to. Shoulds, musts, beliefs, dogma, rules... all the result of others trying to get you to vibrate like them. Why? Because they are missing the mark with their own frequency and it feels like crap and they are hoping to feel more “right” by getting others to agree with them. Never works. Everyone just ends up unhappy.

This is what Spiritual Coaching is about, learning to resonate with the frequencies of our Original Blueprint, learning to follow our own guidance system, learning to let go of anything that pulls us off track. When you get better at ringing true to yourself, Other will entrain to the truth and find its own frequency. This does not mean everything will necessarily be in harmony – don't set yourself up for disappointment that way. What it does mean is that your frequency and the frequency of Other will be in integrity and impeccability for guiding us all back to Union.

“We're all just walking each other home.” Ram Dass

I started to write about why some people heal and others don't. Because I am a guide who takes groups to Brazil to visit Spiritual Healer John of God, the question inevitably arises, “Why are some healing requests granted and some not? Why them and not me?”

Then Jimmy Carter announced he had cancer, a melanoma that had spread to his brain. A week or so after that, Wayne Dyer passed away in his sleep. Two very spiritual and aware men, facing all of our greatest fears.

Jimmy, who will be 91 on October 1st, has decided to treat his condition medically, adding with a peace typical of his faith, that he will be OK with whatever happens. Clearly he is not ready to quit living yet, but he accepts there is a bigger agenda that may over-ride his wishes.

Wayne had been diagnosed years ago with leukemia and turned to healing with John of God and other natural cures rather than traditional treatment. He claimed that it worked and indeed, on September 1st, his daughter announced the autopsy had found him free of leukemia. Wayne had been healed. He was “OK.” And still he was ready to go.

Maybe healing isn't really the conversation that needs to happen. It is a modern, human concept that illness and disease are wrong, bad, and abnormal. Too frequently I hear people ask someone who has just received a hard diagnosis, “So, why do you think you manifested that?” To me, it is a question full of shame and blame, as if they failed in some way.

Maybe the conversation that needs to happen is, “What are you choosing to experience?”

What is healing, anyway? How are disease or accidents related to learning and growth? Who heals, and why or why not? Certainly, when we find out we have an illness, we want it to go away, but even with intervention it doesn't always happen.

Maybe healing has nothing to do with the disease going away. Maybe healing is about allowing the illness or vulnerability to open our hearts, to teach us to receive, to love, to develop courage, acceptance, surrender. Maybe we have to love ourselves. Maybe we have to take our next step.

It is very hard to accept we planned our experiences before we came into these bodies. Like a kid in a candy shop, we picked and chose what would please us, delight us, and what would make us grow. We are not victims. For sure, we may wonder now, “What was I thinking?” because we do this selection process while between bodies and we forget! The state of Human Being is not for the feint of heart.

Certainly, even after we come into our bodies we are still creating. We still get to choose, to break agreements, and make new plans. But because we are first and foremost Spirit in a Body and here to discover, learn and grow, even when our human self wants something different because of our ego or avoidance or programming, etc., our real Self as Spirit will remain true to our deeper Spiritual plan.

When we look at what we have created in our lives, if we are willing to be honest with ourselves, we will be able to see what we have come here to experience. Look at what you've got. That is what you want - because at this present moment it is teaching you something.

For me, I know that I came to this life to experience trusting that I will be provided with everything that I need. Not everything I want, certainly, but everything I need. Sounds like that would be a cake walk, right? Relax, kick back, know that it is taken care of. But I gave myself a good dose of self-sufficiency, independence, and some traumatic brushes with poverty along the way to make it a huge challenge. I made it very difficult for me to be able to ask for help, and I added feeling ashamed to need help, seeing it as a weakness, into the mix.

You've got to be amused! Remember you created these challenges in between bodies, forgetting how hard it is to have a physically limited body, emotions, mental aberrations, and other Human Beings to deal with! But Spirit knows best. You are always bringing yourself the perfect next step.

What have you handed yourself as Spirit? It's seldom found in the “what” or “why” of whatever plagues you. “Why do I have cancer?” “Why did I lose my job?” “Why was I abused?” “Why am I alone?” These are not useful questions.

Maybe the conversation is about the “gift.” If we follow what is given with an open mind and heart, the gift is revealed. “What is living with cancer changing for me?” “What can I do now I've lost my job?” “What will change for me if I forgive my rapist?” We usually can't see it in the moment it is happening because we may be scared or raw or traumatized. But if we trust and embrace the experience the gift will be revealed.

For Wayne, I imagine his gift was the peace, laughter and wisdom he gets to carry with him into his next life. He has stated many times over that he was ready for his next big adventure. Now he is on it. Really. It's not just a death platitude. He got on the train and is on his way.

For Jimmy, seems to me he's in the match of his life. Game's on, and he is 100% ready to show us all what it's like to win with faith. He's trained through the ups and downs of life, and his gift is his certainty. It is so not about live or die. It is about faith and grace.

Our only real illness is forgetting that we are endless, eternal and One. That we are living exactly what we had planned so that we could experience what would grow us, what we can bring to share with one another. If there is any healing to be done, it is from that amnesia.

Wayne and Jimmy, thanks for remembering, Thanks for being present with your diseases and the gifts they brought you. Thanks for your courage, and for showing us the steps as we walk each other home.

Whenever I am in the “red flag zone” of confusion, I know I have stumbled into the Tar Baby of programming.

For those of you unfamiliar with the Tar Baby, it is a character from Uncle Remus’ stories about Br’er Rabbit. These were some of my favorite childhood stories, folklore told through a fictitious, kindly old plantation worker. Br’er Fox and Br’er Bear are always trying to trick Br’er Rabbit and one day Br’er Fox made a life-like figure out of sticky tar and dressed it up and sat it on a log. When Br’er Rabbit comes along, he politely says, “Good Mornin,’” but the Tar Baby doesn’t answer back. Br’er Rabbit eventually gets fed up with the Tar Baby’s silence and throws a punch – effectively embedding his fist deep in the Tar Baby. Then he throws another punch and a few kicks and a head-butt and he is inexorably trapped by the Tar Baby.

Programming is the result of other people telling us what reality is and how we should think, act and feel in it. It starts when we are born (and possibly in the womb).  Programming is how we become “socialized” and it differs from culture to culture. Heck, it even differs from family to family. It is well-meaning for the most part, but whatever programming we accept becomes our reality and keeps us from discovering the world on our own and creating the life we came here to create.

Ironically, it was Br’er Rabbit’s programming around social niceties that got him into his predicament with the Tar Baby in the first place. He’d been taught that it was rude and offensive to ignore a friendly greeting, and this programming convinced him he needed to strike back against this uncouth interloper who was surely disrespecting him with his silence. The more he railed against his problem, the worse it got.

Lucky for Br’er Rabbit, it was Br’er Fox’s programming that got him out of his predicament. The clever rabbit, at home in thick underbrush, begged the fox not to throw him in the briar patch. Br’er Fox, told since he was a kit that the stickers in the briar patch would rip out his thick fur, figured it would be just the torture he wanted for Br’er Rabbit and he threw him in. The tricky rabbit used the prickly underbrush to pull off the Tar Baby and escape. What is one person’s programming is not always reality for another!

What has your programming been? What have you been told by your parents, school, religion, doctor, government, media and even friends and beloveds that you have adopted as your reality? What compels you to do things you really don’t want to, or holds you back from living what you’d love to? What do you rail against like Br’er Rabbit against the Tar Baby? What offends you? What do you use to tell yourself you’re not worthy?

Programming is software for the personality and the physical, mental and emotional bodies. It is how we have been taught to operate. It is what we believe is “reality” and we often blindly defend it as truth, burying our fists in what we believe we must defend ourselves against. Our beliefs, dogmas, shoulds, rules and morals all fall within our programming. It keeps us from being truly free. And it feels so darned apparently true, because we have operated from our programming all our lives.

But I will lay a bet that if you’re reading this blog you have, at some point in your life, made the choice to break away from something that had you trapped. Maybe it was a relationship or a job or a religion or even an academic teaching that came to feel so not-right that you chose to break the rules and expectations and ignore the shoulds and leave whatever the programming tried so hard to convince you to do.  In that act you learned to listen to yourself as Spirit.

When we are not living as Spirit in our bodies, the only software the body and mind have to work from is our programming.  Like a knee-jerk reaction we respond as we have been taught instead of taking a breath and a moment to retreat to our neutrality and make a conscious decision how we want to act in any given situation. How we want to be as Spirit in the world. The saving grace is that we almost always know when we are not being true to ourselves. It just doesn’t feel right, and that red flag of confusion comes to the fore.

All programming isn’t bad. It is useful to have the hardwiring not to walk in front of moving trucks or eat glass or touch red hot burners. The key is to free ourselves from any programming that keeps us from living from Spirit, that keeps us trapped in concepts that may not be congruent with the reality we want to create. One of the reasons people walk on hot coals is to break out of their programming, to prove to body and mind that we shouldn’t believe everything we think! If you can walk on hot coals, then maybe you can sing, or paint a picture, or start a business, or… the possibilities are endless.  

So, congratulations on whatever you have freed yourself from. It probably took more than a little courage. You must have had faith, blind or otherwise. You had to have loved yourself more than your programming. And you absolutely found yourself - if only until the next wave of programming kicked in - living as Spirit in your body.

If you want to know what you are “supposed” to be doing in your life, take a look around at what you have already created. The hints are everywhere. It may not be glamorous or even comfortable. It may be hidden among the drama. It probably is not at all what you imagined. Still, all throughout the matrix of the life you have created you will find your signature, your seal, your sigil, and the electromagnetic vibration of your frequency as Spirit in a Body.

It is impossible for it to be otherwise, just as the pen must write with the color of the ink with which it is filled. There are infinite possibilities of what the pen may write, but it will always be true to its ink and its nib. You brought with you the frequencies of what you wished to learn and do and create in this life, and that vibration constantly draws to you that which harmonizes with it.

“Then how come I’m so unhappy?”

“How come I’m sick?”

“Why did my beloved leave me?”

“I hate my job,,,I barely have enough money to live on…bad things always happen to me…I can’t find a partner…my business failed…I’m in pain all the time…”

These are the voices I often hear in my Spiritual Coaching practice. If I am Spirit in a Body and I came here for a reason, why do I feel so very far away from it? How can it be right here around me?

SpiritWalk blog will share with you information that has “dropped in” or “emerged” throughout my life. Over the past 30 years, my own frequencies led me to create a path where I can help others to find their peace, their health, and their answers, first as a body worker, then a holistic psychotherapist, and finally a psychic, healer and Spiritual Coach.  Almost all of this information has come as a result of constantly asking questions about being Spirit in a Body and holding space (with everyone who came into my circle) for the answers.

I have not done this alone. There have been numerous teachers, mentors, petty tyrants, friends, lovers, children and clients. It has been far from easy. It has not been pretty. I did not get rich. I have laughed a whole lot. I have had fun. I have fallen inexorably in love with Life and learned to deeply honor and hold Sacred Above All the blessed reason we agreed to come play in this illusion of separation from Source – Love.

We are all on the same SpiritWalk when you really get down to it. It is immensely complex and exquisitely simple at the same time. The SpiritWalk is the journey we are all on to learn about Love. In Source, Love IS. It is constant and immoveable. It is non-transient. But the vortex of love was too strong to remain intransient. Love needed to act. So Source – “we” – followed the urge to play at being separate so that Love could move by loving “Other.” Love became transient, went into action, sacrificed Union for Duality, and began the long strange trip to recognize the Sacred in our beloved’s eyes.  Voila, Life!

After much experience, “we” have been in the process of following Love into denser and denser realms, curious if it really does permeate even the harshest vibrations. This is the play we are at in our current era. And boy, are we having to do some fancy dancing to keep that balance! For each depth and density we enter we have to teeter-totter to equally high and fine frequencies. It reverberates from the macro to the micro, from the universal to the personal. Everything is dancing the polarity boogie! So are our personal lives going to be easily kept on an even keel? Nope. Are they going to reflect the vacillating frequencies with which we are now at play? Yep.

Hang out with these blog posts for a while, however. We’re going to look both at energies that can throw us off base and tools to clear aura, mind and body. You’ll learn about managing your personal space. You’ll learn to adjust the “fulcrum” on your teeter-totter and be better in control of the swings. We’ll enter the “field” together and download more of the infinite information out there while we re-member our personal SpiritWalk.